I have let life get me so bogged down its been a year since my last post. life is so strange and twisted. let's see. my man and i did get back together this past january but due to people who should have minded their own business we have gone our seperate ways yet again. i was completely crushed by this, because even though i had fault in it he did as well. and why should he only listen to them and if he truely loved me he would have tried to work things thru right? but i digress. we've reached the point of friendship for the sake of our santies and for the kids. My friend Seth ahs finally graduate from training! and im excited cuz im finally going to get to see him! so proud of you Seth and i know the kids are too. Work is work. i hate it and lover it all at the same time. but i really need to get my crap together and get on with a better life. i need to improve it for my kids and myself. although i am learning to love my self better( oh my Seth will probably take that the wrong way). cuz if i dont love myself what right do i have to ask others to love me? i have had a lot of time to look inward and dig myself back up from the basement...lol....i slay me. not happy with the person i had become so its a daily struggle. im learning that im ok on my own and although i still have terribly lonely nights its getting easier. dammit work is calling.